A little bit of hope in this dark journey

Well hi, this is judith again. Just trying to, you know, take each day at a time. I've had a good and bad weekend, good in the sense that i have been to speak to someone who was trying to commit suicide and i've shared with her that there is hope beyond this world and helped her by giving her a cup of tea which she hasn't had for three days and she has promised me that she was going to have breakfast this morning, which she did. well we have talked alot since last night, a good few hours, and i gave her simple but practical help. i've asked her to shout jesus if she has to- that's what i say to her. i told her to come and get me if she needs to from my room, or send to me. i've also told her how many times we have been in and out of here; i've told her just to hold on, to think of her son at the moment instead of thinking too much about the future. find something to life instead of thinking 'oh my god i've failed'. she also said to me that her confidence is all gone, but i say to her hang on because deciding not to commit suicide when you have made the decision to is something brave, if i can do something and you make up your mind then decide not to it takes a bit of being brave, and i had to find a way of saying that. then i moved her away from that kind of topic, and we started talking about politics and life in general and she started smiling and laughing, which was unusual, and eventually she say to me that she had found the talk very helpful, and it showed her there was a bit of hope, but she said she wouldn't promise. then i said to her that it was ok for her to feel what she was feeling because it takes a bit of time to rebuild herself to what she was.

i had many calls yesterday, which was good. lots of friends called- church called early in the morning, then terry and his friend- who else? i remember many calls came in... mali spoke iwth mariah and henry called later on. so we were kept busy and felt treasured and loved and had something to concentrate on that wasn't the world. it was good and bad but there is hope.

I also got two calls from john o. so today, monday, not bad. we have just changed our sheets to clean ones and recieved acupuncture for stress relief. they say it helps you relax, so we have to keep this needle above our ears for 3 days, and massage it every so often. yesterday john o sent us a fax quite early, and i went in and out to get it but i couldn't- i just recieved it now. each time we went they told us there was no fax waiting for us. they always do that. normally they say that in a court of law that witholding information is a criminal offence...


Thank you for visiting the site (and thanks to the person who posted a comment- it was very kind and i will see that person soon) and have a good day, speak to you tommorow or before.
Judith.